My Special Heart
There are times when my heart
Is filled with pain and grief
When I think of brother Bill
Who grew up in mean streets
He didn't have a place to stay
When he was a little boy
He just went from home to home
Like a little gypsy's toy
His heart was full of love
He would laugh so merrily
Never felt the hurt of what
His life was meant to be
He would live from time to time
In a place where he was warm
Finally my Grandpa died
Grandma coaxed him home
Struggled through his life
Fought alcohol and drugs
Then became a counselor
By many he was loved
Life began to work for him
Things were going great
His health did fail and he was ill
For years this was his fate
He'd spend the days in bed
Talking with his friends
Offering to help someone
But knew his life would end
He fought so hard with all his might
Through every crisis there
His wife beside him every day
Filled with love and care
For years he lived within his bed
Sometimes he sat in chair
Always when I walked in room
His face would light with care
This little boy who had my heart
Since I was just a child
We were so connected then
It lasted just with smiles
He loved me so and I loved him
We didn't have to talk
Just a look of comfort would bring
The happiness we sought
I never will forget his eyes
They were so crystal blue
His lashes were a woman's wish
So natural curly too
A smile that could light up the world
This gift God gave to him
That no one who would ever meet
Could resist that special grin
On a special birthday
He sent a card to me
In it this is what he said
Such simple poetry
I always loved you with my heart
I'm sorry I'm not there
I want you to just realize
That it's your heart I wear
Several days after that
I received an urgent call
I went to see this special man
We didn't speak at all
I really thought that he'd pull through
This man whose heart I keep
I put my head upon his chest
Heard his heart skip beats
As I walked away from him
I turned to look around
The tears were streaming down my face
This memory now is bound
He passed away that night you see
Took a piece of me
It was close to Christmas
My heart was so empty
I don't know how I got through days
With so much pain and grief
On Christmas day I went to see
The place where he does sleep
I sat on bench looked on the wall
I swear I saw his face
It filled my heart with so much love
This picture won't erase
This gift I got from Brother Bill
Will always be a part
The smile he gave that Christmas Day
Is always in my heart.
~ I Love You Bill ~
Frania
William Michael Wisniewski
9-10-42 ~ 10-10-96
~ Francine
Pucillo ~
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